The Mind PT1

Real me this is the real me Hate myself please fucking kill me Naw naw that ain't the real you Stick around and maybe you'll see Scared of love Are you scared? Are you scared too? I know it's hypocritical But Why you scared to? Why you fearful? I'll be there I'm right here hope your there too Boo like a ghost I disappear to Anxiety hit now you looking in the rear view Life of black man Life on crack man Feel like pac man Eat then leave the crumbs there for the next man For next generation She like good sex and penetration They say men don't cry so I don't like to vent I rather stuff it all and hide inside a tent I wanna love her but pain keeps haunting I put my foot on the gas in hopes that imma crash (Heart) I wish it could to last (Mind) Leave it in the past Tears from pain in the pain enough to fill up a glass What's wrong why do you ask my pain visible Sorry I'm trying my best not to look miserable Just know you like family if I ever visit you And if not that mean I was never missing you Just cuz I'm talking shit don't mean that I'm dissing you Just cuz we touched lips don't mean that I was kissing you Just cuz I thought of you don't mean I'm reminiscing you Just cuz I talk to you don't mean that I'm missing you Pain and hunger Rain and Thunder Man I wonder God I wonder Adam and Eve Do I believe? I got the keys Jay-Z One thousand child support you crazy You won't even let me see my baby But you still want to be my lady Naw bish now you gotta pay me Throw the keys away Throw the house away Throw the food away Throw you away I don't want it You can have it all As long as I can see my baby by tomorrow