Losing Patience

I was looking forward to this day for so long I had it all planned out I was hoping it'd all work out I was losing patience you know it's never been my best trait counting minutes, hours, counting days then it dawned on me unpredictabilty I told myself everything's just fine you worry too much, it's gonna eat you alive I was looking forward to this day for so long I had it all planned out I was hoping that it would all work out would all work out now I feel exposed like a black light on the wall in a darkened room all the dirt appears you can see my fears I don't want to let my guard down you know I never had the feeling that you would prey on my insecurities because I never had the feeling that you would prey on these insecurities I have why is this wait taking so long why is this wait taking so long counting minutes, hours, counting days I'm losing patience don't think this means I'm walking away don't think this means I'm walking I won't let fear get the best of me now it's up to me, I wouldn't change a thing I won't let fear get the best of me DON'T THINK THIS MEANS I'M WALKING AWAY now it's up to me, I wouldn't change a thing DON'T THINK THIS MEANS I'M WALKING AWAY