Shining

I've grown far too acquainted to being disappointed. And I'm still not sure how I feel anymore. So void of emotion, I'm not sure on where I stand. Helpless and thirsty for peace. Never wanting what I need. It has taken me this long. To admit that I am wrong. You make me feel like myself. When everything fades to black. You pull me out of this hell. You bring the color back. The worst kind of self-deprecation. Almost at my end, internalized contempt. Let my sighs give way to this song of Your strength. Repeating to myself that You have a plan for me. Broken world. The life we're willing to face. Open heart. A risk we're willing to take. You make me feel like myself. When everything fades to black. You pull me out of this hell. You bring the color back.