Falling Down

I'm just tryin to find a way to numb the pain Something stronger than my precious Mary Jane Mine is trapped up in chaos and it rains And it pours and takes control over my brain I just wanna feel like everything is okay I wish I could walk away from this whole thing I don't wanna be the next one dead and od'd The reflection in the mirror says he knows things He says pop a pill take a of the blunt Take another shot of alcohol, we should try shootin' up Don't be picky with the poison, it'll numb all the pain And it'll all go away once it is stuck in your veins Relapse, I'm about to fall down Relapse let it happen right now I'ma let it all happen, I'ma let it all go Catch me if I fall, I just wanna let you know I'm fallin', I'm fallin' down I'm crawlin', I'm crawlin' out I'm fallin', I'm fallin', I'm fallin' down I'm crawlin', I'm crawlin', I'm crawlin' out I see shadows creepin' towards me in the dark Try to run and get away, I try so hard Tryin' to escape all the habits of the old me But the demons in the dark, they control me So I'ma pop a few to kill the fuckin' pain Chemical love and the lust, I feel insane I've been screamin', reachin' out for fuckin' help All they ever really cares about themselves So I sit and fight this battle in my brain The shadows in my thoughts say it's okay I don't ever think I'll ever be the same Are amphetamines a heroin to blame, is it okay Relapse I'm about to fall down Relapse let it happen right now I'ma let it all happen, I'ma let it all go Catch me if I fall, I just wanna let you know I'm fallin', I'm fallin', I'm crawlin', I'm crawlin' down I'm fallin', I'm fallin', I'm fallin' down Crawlin', I'm crawlin', I'm crawlin' out