Shoulda Known

I shoulda known that you'd leave me home Maybe leave me lone I shoulda known this I shoulda known that we way too grown That we don't belong I didn't notice Stirring the pot Is a perfect response If I do it again, I don't want it to stop Public disturbance, I'm makin it pop Hole in my chest, keep bodying shots Cameras is broken, photos is cropped Ask what I go through, I'll tell you a lot Trading my secrets like perilous stocks I don't want em no more Burn a hole in my pockets Options, gimme options I turn with the earth, so nauseous You still in the picture frame Adorning the corner of the desk In my office I don't got a office But you know what I mean Look at yo conscious Dirty or clean? Shit, you know what I mean I shoulda known that you'd leave me home Maybe leave me lone I shoulda known this I shoulda known that we way too grown That we don't belong I didn't notice I feel like, What Ellison said was real I'm an invisible—wait I feel like—hold on, who's taking the wheel? I'm on the interstate Talking to God He asking me how does it feel? Look, I'm partly obsessed with Retracing my steps So how did it feel? I know that my problems Is deeper than most You witnessed the scenes That don't make it in post But really, how did it feel? I sorta pretend to my friends The sentiments ended—look How did it feel? I'm in the—wait You couldn't—hold up Me and you didn't—look Just tell me, how did it feel? I shoulda known that you'd leave me home Maybe leave me lone I shoulda known this I shoulda known that we way too grown That we don't belong I didn't notice I shoulda known when you took your phone Did things I don't condone I shoulda known this I shoulda known that it's been too long We singing different songs I didn't notice