Kids With Toys

Crying when I'm looking back And I wish you were the person I needed Yeah Tell me what you put inside my drink 'Cause it's getting kinda hard to think For myself, for myself Your morals clouding Heart won't stop pounding 'Cause we was just some kids with toys Until we started sipping poison Given to us by the blood of Christ our Lord From dad and mom Dad and momma, now they gone but Not from this earth Just my person They can't get past all of my sins Tried to teach, but they ain't listening Stuck at sixteen Frontal lobe? Nope, drugs Somewhere in between you was just Down on your luck But I don't give a f*ck When you're just playing victim I'm growing up getting outta that system Crying when I'm looking back And I wish you were the person I needed yeah I'm tired 'Cause I just can't sleep Every time You're hijacking my dreams Maybe I'll give it one more prayer God you hear this Do you even give a shit 'bout me Think fam's happy without me Tell me where you at though I been calling but You no show You've grown cold I'm freezing Emotions they leave me I'm screaming at night Fight or flight kicking in Through all of these nightmares I fear the funeral Do I gotta go Thought you were super-human When I read the articles Chapters, books, whatever It's all so clever Why you need a book to be so beautiful You gonna answer tell me what your plans are Nope? F*ck No love Why am I praying to a god I don't believe in Committing family treason Yet you the one that's leaving Don't leave me Don't leave me Thought we were kids with toys We was kids with poison ideals "The ideal family unit You see, God brings us together Linked forever Better not get caught up in those sinful ways You know the path we paved The only road to go down Otherwise bitch I'll watch you drown I'll hold you down myself" You know what else Anything that meant anything was simply A way to manipulate me I'm really fucking glad I got outta there 'Cause I was living a life full of despair Knowing that I had no chance My soul was damned What was your plan to save me Crying (I'm crying) When I'm looking back (For the person I needed the most, oh) And I wish you were the person I needed yeah I'm tired (I'm so tired, I'm so tired) 'Cause I just can't sleep (I just can't sleep without you) Every time (Every time, every time, yeah) You're hijacking my dreams Yeah