Letter to My Dad

My mum was young and having fun When I was born my dad didn't know he had a son I've heard lies heard truth but I deserved proof I grew up thinking he was running like a marathon What the f*ck could I do there's way too much damage done I felt the pain the rage and embarrassment Don't try and take me for some silver spooned white boy I was up and down the field attacking em like maddison We just about got by I was a filthy gob shite While mum took a whole load of pressure it's not right That's when she lost her job and then begun to shot white I can't blame my dad but I know he has not tried You should know my souls cold I'm immune to frostbite I'm up and away in the wind like a lost kite Life's a madness I just wanna stop time I feel like I'm Tommy Cooper dying in the spotlight I could of wrote a letter to my dad Instead I put pen up in my pad then went and said it on a track There ain't no other way to tell him he's a twat In fact have you ever been a dad never that I could of wrote a letter to my dad Instead I put pen up in my pad then went and said it on a track There ain't no other way to tell him he's a twat In fact have you ever been a dad never that I'm mad at you I need my daddy too But it's twenny five years late I'm a dad of two Man I swear you don't even have a clue You just wanna have a drink & then you've only had a few So I lock off kick back n wrao a zoot write a track or two About the shit I've had to battle through I put my fear in a trap like a panic room Deaths in the air can you feel it's a tragic noon I was taught revenge is sweet like sugar So I cherish every meal like it's my last supper I don't know why we choose to hurt one another Pain runs deep when it hides undercover To my brother I never had the chance to love ya You was raised by both parents I was dragged up in the gutter By my mother where I had to lear to suffer But man I cannot judge ya cuz now I am above that I could of wrote a letter to my dad Instead I put pen up in my pad then went and said it on a track There ain't no other way to tell him he's a twat In fact have you ever been a dad never that I could of wrote a letter to my dad Instead I put pen up in my pad then went and said it on a track There ain't no other way to tell him he's a twat In fact have you ever been a dad never that I could of wrote a letter to my dad What's the point when I know he wouldn't write back I met him once then I got no response It's kind of mad how he brushed me off like that It's not right I couldn't turn my back on my lad I'm quick to react like a venus fly trap Tough luck he missed out I raise my own kids now Don't dwell on the past cuz you can't turn time back Life still goes on don't rely on no one I doubt my dad will even listen to this whole song I bottle up emotions then turn the microphone on This gass leak will catch heat I'm about to blow don Who am I when the bars and the flows gone Just a no one someone tryna hold on I used to wonder where do people get hope from Life's too short but feels Ike it's so long I could of wrote a letter to my dad Instead I put pen up in my pad then went and said it on a track There ain't no other way to tell him he's a twat In fact have you ever been a dad never that I could of wrote a letter to my dad Instead I put pen up in my pad then went and said it on a track There ain't no other way to tell him he's a twat In fact have you ever been a dad never that