Sinking

I try stay blessed and keep Ahead of the strife But 'round here there's that negative vibe I've never had much so I cherish my pride I nearly lost myself I've seen relatives die Rappers rain pain and they're begging It why F*ck your feelings I'm just telling my life If your feeling f*ck the world you're rebelling like I why Because the government are selling us lies Surrounded by fake-ism bullshit and racism They're dumb enuff to carry out what the government made for em Knowledge is power but that was a late vision Couldn't make my mates listen Now they cant escape prison I'll make your brain blow like 9/11 You wanna fly to heaven Hold my hand and light the lemon Knowledge is power despite the weapon Don't you think it's stupid what we do when life Is threatened Life's took for granted I wish we could of planned it Time goes so damn quick the world is rancid I don't understand it this ain't demanded I'm sick of drinking it's like sinking in a sand pit Life's took for granted I wish we could of planned it Time goes so damn quick the world is rancid I don't understand it this ain't demanded I'm sick of drinking it's like sinking in a sand pit Emotions stay closed in people get pushed away I turn down help to the point they think I love the pain I'm feeling f*ck the fame But then I'm getting booked again On new years eve 2016 I touched the stage That same night I had to silently suffer mate F*ck the sympathy I would rather suffocate My Mrs phoned me panicking I struggled to adjust my brain She had a miscarriage and our baby had been flushed away I'm tryna spare my struggles for another day I paint a vivid picture people look away I was in two minds should I go should I stay Or ignore my problems and spark another jay I can't control my thoughts my brains like a hurricane I know man who might not even see their son again I'm at war with the lord how could I pray I lost faith in God when Sophia had been took away Life's took for granted I wish we could of planned it Time goes so damn quick the world is rancid I don't understand it this ain't demanded I'm sick of drinking it's like sinking in a sand pit Life's took for granted I wish we could of planned it Time goes so damn quick the world is rancid I don't understand it this ain't demanded I'm sick of drinking it's like sinking in a sand pit I was too young to see my great pops Charlie die The pain was insane but them days I hardly cried I blame it on how hard we ride Tryna turn the dark to light I feel like my life is depending on how hard I write I'm feeling f*ck it they don't wanna see my darker side I'm coming with a sharper knife I'm emptying my jerry can I beg someone spark a light why I'm gunna watch this earth burn before they tare away this heart of mine Cancer caught my nan she took the fight and stood her ground Our second name is Waring you can see it in my thuggish frown I can't blame my dad cuz he never stuck around I don't blame my mum and she's the one who fucked around That's life though how the f*ck could I know Still I have to live with it when none of this is my fault My mind is constantly spinning like a cyclone But now I'm grown I just wanna find hope Life's took for granted I wish we could of planned it Time goes so damn quick the world is rancid I don't understand it this ain't demanded I'm sick of drinking it's like sinking in a sand pit Life's took for granted I wish we could of planned it Time goes so damn quick the world is rancid I don't understand it this ain't demanded I'm sick of drinking it's like sinking in a sand pit