Come Along

I'm trying to try I'm dying inside Truth is I'm losing My loose ends untied I'm soft... Life chews me up toothless And spits me out clueless Self worth is useless As too is my drive Give me a second, no a minute, no a year Hoping I catch up but I've got no idea I'm spent and I keep on spending It leaves dents the blemishes bled in I didn't plan to stay crashing I'm flabbergasted All mixed and no matching No hand I can manage I handle time passage But add up the damage A sailor no captain Feel captive no passion I toke on the cabbage And hope it relaxes Down then I'm up that's just how it happens Drown out the sound my loud stereo blasting Come along the night is done The day has come the sun is up You've got the strength so strap in harness Reach deep tap in wait out the darkness If I glitter I'm faking I'm plated not golden I'm hiding my shame cuz At core I feel broken Don't peep cards when I'm folding The options my only Hate watching doors closing Don't see it don't notice 'Least that's what the goal is I'm stuck in a phase Might as well be a maze I'm lapped by each day They all feel the same I'm cloudy... Hazy at best Down but whose counting? No rest makes me lazy No smile no frowning Head down Feet on the ground pounding Keep on keeping on Pay no mind when I'm doubting I'll take the beating I need it I'm fiending to feel it Beats numbness I mean it Grit teeth the pain frees me When I'm writhing and reeling I block out the feelings Think only on real things The while repeating Come along the night is done The day has come the sun is up You've got the strength so strap in harness Reach deep tap in wait out the darkness You're low No need be hopeless Stay seeking progress The process a slow bitch So know it ain't growthless In the bed of my choosing Ain't much but it suits me Not tryna being flashy My own manufactured Built slow and it's lasting Not much but I have it The world keeps on turning Bet house it's a sure thing You learn the whole journey Get stripes when you earn 'em Life will keep toying It's lived best enjoying No expectations So plans never foiled If I try and fail I could die in peace let my greed prevail, couldn't rest easy Avoiding regrets, take a breath and reflect Make the most of my chances, How many I'll get? Life is a canvas I paint in abstractions Ain't nothing fantastic Still soothes me like magic Come along the night is done The day has come the sun is up You've got the strength so strap in harness Reach deep tap in wait out the darkness