Fast Forward

The pain that I've endured I know that I'm close Still striving to be stronger That's better than most Just to be in my right mind That deserve a toast Watching them rush to see they finish I would rather coast Make sure I'm learning the most Study all my notes and make my stamp In case they send for me cll these instruments at once feel like a symphony So much change that I lost count You think it's simple, please Only time I'll let them bank is if it's Synchrony I speak the truth I never had the time Envy who Busy mowing lawn for snakes Ignoring who I'm closest to Take a knife through the rib Then what would you do If God showed you the real Would you look for proof What's yo truth Would you switch your stance or would you hold true Fear that pain and let that energy mold you My only purpose it to do what I'm supposed to You gotta die to grow through I just wish that I could Fast-Forward To the more than what I asked for To visions I have seen Skip passed the in-between Cause In my dreams I always had more Wish that I could Fast-Forward If I could I'd do the dashboard Healed from the scars From the pain Now I'm free I wonder would that take away From who I'll grow to be Look I know the journey contributes To building character I got the stamina plus I'm up for the challenge but I got my wish it's coming in Now I'm bagging M's cnswered the question if I will Cause I'm really him Business booming a hundred thousand to see me In my harvest season from seeds sewn I am reaping Family straight my kids' kids gone eat I finally reached where I'm supposed to be But I can't remember seeing King get to walk across the stage Growing into his own Having to find his way Seeing all of my sisters fall in love with they living Crying at all they weddings Loving on all they children I thought I would be Better if I could avoid the tough road But I gave up much more Things that people live for Thought that skipping stress would be the best and bring me peace Now I'm mourning all I missed and I can't sleep Damn I wish that I could Rewind Pick up on everything I missed Met my goals But I can't reminisce Got all I wanted But I ain't really free Can't recognize who I see Man I wish that I could Rewind I'm up now I wish I could switch Pressure made me rush to win But how could I forget This ain't what I meant When I mentioned change Let me put it into frame I just wish that I could Fast forward Fast forward Fast forward Fast forward From the pain and misery Could you take the pain from me Wish that I could Fast forward Fast forward Fast forward Fast forward From this pain and misery But is it really bad as it seems