Dear Dad

I'm embarrassed now I feel nothing Hey Deddy, three decades silent, a deafening space Spilling my thoughts on this page, hoping you'll embrace Remember when I idolized you, my childhood hero But that image shattered, the day you almost became the zero So many nights, I questioned my worth, a hollow ache (ooooo) Yearning for a father's love, a connection I couldn't make (ooooo) But your silence echoed, a chasm deep and wide (ooooo) Leaving a son wounded, with nowhere to hide. (ooooo) You broke my heart, left your own flesh and blood (ooooo) Aching for a father's love, lost in the flood(ooooo) I needed you then, and I still need you now (ooooo) The scars of abandonment, I can't disavow. (ooooo) So many questions, swirling in my mind A son's yearning for a father's time But the silence was deafening, the absence deep Leaving a void, a wound I couldn't keep. Years turned to miles, the distance grew cold Your promises faded, stories left untold No heart-to-hearts, no guidance to find Just an empty echo, left far behind You broke my heart, left your own flesh and blood (oooooh) Aching for a father's love, lost in the flood(oooooh) I needed you then, and I still need you now (oooooh) The scars of abandonment, I can't disavow. (oooooh) Years turned to miles, the distance grew cold Your promises faded, stories left untold No heart-to-hearts, no guidance to find Just an empty echo, left far behind Mom's memory a flicker, a flame that still burns But you moved on so quickly, another lesson learned New wife, new life, a family rebuilt But we, your children, left out in the cold, unfulfilled. I watched you choose her, time and time again Our pain dismissed, as if it were pretend We became strangers, living separate lives (oooooh) Now I'm a man, with scars that run deep The anger subsides, a forgiveness I seek Time is precious, and I won't let it slip away I need to rebuild this bridge, before it's too late to say. Haunted by the past, by a love I never knew (dear dad) A father's embrace, a promise untrue (dear dad) The weight of your absence, a burden I bear (dear dad) But in this brokenness, a flicker of hope I dare. (dear dad) So many nights, I questioned my worth, a hollow ache Yearning for a father's love, a connection I couldn't make But your silence echoed, a chasm deep and wide Leaving a son wounded, with nowhere to hide. I pour out my heart, in every word I write (oooo) Hoping for a connection, to set things right (oooo) Forget the past, the apologies, the blame (oooo) Just give me a chance, to know you by name. (oooo)