IF YOU GET LOST

I'm thinking about life and how it fluctuates My elders say be grateful for another day But I lay in bed at night and I'm up awake Wondering if I really wanna make it to 28? Groundhog Day, I feel like Bill Murray When I saw that as a kid, I was in a hurry to grow up Now as a grown-up it's overrated My dad said my greatest weakness is I'm so impatient And it irritates me, I just wanted it now So he grounded me, cause my head was stuck in the clouds Thinking, wow, is that all that my life is about? Working 'til I die Not allowed to be proud? How can I ever find joy? Can I ever find it outside of a joint? I think of how much it would disappoint Me as a little boy If he saw me at this point I'm looking for my reason I've been trying to find my go, ay Running from these demons They wanna go toe-to-toe, ay They can drive me crazy But they cannot take control Yeah, I know, yeah, I swear on my soul, I won't let go, ay Feel a lot of pain, but I never let it show, ay Thunder and the rain, making angels out of snow, ay Getting hella high, cause the lows are really low Yeah, I know that I really need to learn to let it go I showed up to the party drunk No one noticed me drinking out the trunk And it's summer, but I keep the Bacardi tucked deep in my coat And here I go, knowing a sip is a slippery slope I'm trying to stay sane But how the f*ck do you maintain willpower When the challenge is built in your brain? I'm trying to free my mind, so I'll take a ride North on I-five, probably texting while I drive And sometimes I feel like I'm dreaming It's like there's glass in front of what in the f*ck I'm seeing And even worse, when I talk, it's like I disconnect It's like I just go deaf and it comes off as disrespect I let so many people down with this music shit I feel so useless, man, I used to jump through hoops for it But Mr. Goodbar said that this shit is do or die So if you don't do it, it means you're choosing suicide And I don't know what's there Left for me to say Tear down all the walls But you're still inside a cage You can run away And do that if you dare No matter where you go You will always be right there Right there, you'll always be right there Right there, you'll always be right there Right there, I'll always be right there Right there, I'll always be right there