Kings Daughter II (feat. D.D. Rankins)

This time it hurt more then I let on I'm wide awake but slept on it left harm My left arm I'd give that to have you Your mom love you but love come from dad too Some bad moves I made those but it's all good Ask Adam nothing hurt like the fall could I'm getting up wit a broken heart but it still beat And I been fasting Toya make sure I still eat I'm real weak all week for a few months And I'd be lying if I said it wasn't too much I threw up on a empty stomach and it was clear Ignoring problems won't ever make them just disappear They reappear whenever I find rest time And people tell me the struggle produce the best lines Never mind all is mind all is mental Lyrics illustrate but ion need to draw pictures The curtains drawn I'm exposed so you can see I never wanted this distance between you and me They'll never overstand what this incident do to me But you the reason I could never let it ruin me I'm truancy for the holidays these hollow days I'm sober minded attacks be coming all kinds ways It's kind of strange how everything had to transpire Cause she was toxic and expected me to stand by her Now you caught in the middle like this is tug of war But when they bitter lines thin between love and war I can't ignore the fact I feel that I let you down We FaceTime but tears fall when you ain't around I stay afloat cause you the reason I can't drown I miss them days me chasing you on the playground You growing daily remember that you a real Godis Remember daddy would rather you keep it real honest My hair is yours I promised that it would grow with you I promise that I would teach you so you would know the truth I promise that your conception was all intentional I met you in a dream it spoke to me on the spiritual I'll never sugar coat nothing sugar is bad for you She tried take you from me she can't do the math for you I caught a plane on Christmas and ended in a cell It broke me down jus realizing that you wasn't there But it won't drive me crazy I took the steering wheel My baby girl need her father and I need my baby girl It's like the harder I fight the more you will know I love Pep talks from the coach along wit shoulder rubs Gloves off in the ring and the ring is off too She blocked my number on the tablet that I bought you I think about all the damage that this has caused you I still thinkin about how the witch was your favorite costume And I swear my smiles a mask it isn't genuine Cause you could see the tracks of my tears, Smokey Robinson Not again this situation has threw a curve Remaining strong is how I'm making it thru the hurt It's truly hurt jus knowing you gotta go thru this Till we together I promise it isn't over wit I feel you crying for daddy and daddy crying too I'm coming for u they say I'm not then they lie to you I'll die for you after I teach you how to live Told the tat man your portrait is going on my ribs That's on my kid never could I even fathom this Nothing could never be the same again after this I know somebody heard this and they was mad at this But when you blameless you happy to keep it accurate I'm that intense I'm that convinced that I know I'm right These nightmares make it harder to sleep overnight But when you waking up out of sleep you supposed to write My spirit feeling disrupted this isn't poltergeist I done called ancestors and all of my spirit guides Cause you are flesh of my flesh and now I'm missing mine And now mine missing miss me if you a dead beat Screw they logic ion wanna know how your head think Cause I got a daughter that's prolly gonna need therapy And a baby momma that's telling people she scared of me Damn What you watching Umm, umm babies You watching babies Uh huh What you eating Umm, rice and beans Rice and beans Um Ok, I love you I la you