I'm Alive

Well aaight bitch, look at us, I guess we made it Wrote so many songs and my best friends played it I ran away with dreams but now I'm located Im never going back to the past I learned You not liking me is not my concern Made it this far and I can confirm COB Denzel is a past tense term I had to through dark times just to see the light Sleeping less nights and I missed my flight Went to another city just so I can write A story of a kid full of fear thats right You have no idea where I've been Desperately missing a friend Wondering where time has went But now look at us and the lessons I learned And yes, we had it hard This wasn't easy, this came from the heart It's crazy to think I was playing my part while I was falling apart Everyone thought I was smart They don't know I create art I got a deck full of cards and I'm ready to play them no matter where I gotta start Imma make sure I'm alive I know I'm alive but what can I hide When I lied to one of my friends and I denied Every possibility every responsabiltiy And I covered with ability the truth nigga that is unforgivable And I don't blame you for that I've been through shit you could never experience Building my future in backyards like phineas Do i sound dumb cuz I'm thinking delirious If i do a lot they gon think that I'm serious Why do you think I wrote prologue Why do you think that I wrote wonder My head was a storm and my hands were the clouds And that project was only a thunder Why do you think I wrote replay Why do you think I wrote painless All of my life just to waiting for this moment Cuz I knew this moment would bring me some changes And I have been keeping it my way I know you don't know what to say But all of the time that I spend with the fear of being alone I was hoping that at least the flowers will stay I was hoping that I could put the brightness low in my screen I was hoping that maybe one day You would've come back to listen to all of these songs And realized I've been changing my ways I got you thinking I'm clever but you're just dumb Posponing your pains it's not making it numb I went to hell just to have some fun Now I'm fighting with demons without a gun How funny If bleeding means balling then my nose real runny Tanning my words and it is real sunny They wrong if revenge is not sweet like honey Don't know how I do it just know how I'm doing it You make a move but you don't know I'm viewing it Know that I'm good I will not spend time proving it Punching my heart just because I like bruising it What happened to the times when I said I was gon do it and then I did it Started doing drugs and I quit it Giving all this love but you don't transmit it Trynna prove you wrong but you won't admit it