Suicide Living

In my mind it's hard to focus Thoughts been getting scrambled And my heart been growing hopeless Told me life's a gamble So I'm pushing all my tokens If the dealer take it all I'm rolling back up in a Lotus Shit I can't lie Suicide Living Feeling like I can't die Suicide Living All I need is bank signs Suicide Life is really what you make up Suicide Reaper telling me to pay up Suicide Living Feeling like I can't die Suicide Living All I need is bank signs Suicide Life is really what you make up Suicide Suicide I been feeling bad So I guess I'll go get trashed more No more texting back So I guess that I'm an asshole All these niggas wack Pull up on em get em whacked more D-Suggs on the map Your girl singing all my tracks bro I was 17 back when I lost it all Wishing it was me there's no one there to call Trips to Tennessee with my step-dad and mom I couldn't believe that you were really gone But now you're really gone (You're really gone) You're really gone (You're really gone) You're really gone (You're really gone) You're really gone Damn I guess you're really gone now Who the hell am I supposed to call now Feeling pain all up in my songs now Taking Henny shots till I fall down Shit I can't lie Suicide Living Feeling like I can't die Suicide Living All I need is bank signs Suicide Life is really what you make up Suicide Reaper telling me to pay up Suicide Living Feeling like I can't die Suicide Living All I need is bank signs Suicide Life is really what you make up Suicide Reaper telling me to pay up Oh don't you pay up And no don't you wait up Don't ask for favors It might f*ck my day up Get what I'm saying Only ones that's in my circle is J, Tea, and Jason Told my momma ima make it know I'm sick of waiting And all these other rappers basic Boy I'm sick of playing Don't got time for none of that hating