Afraid 2 Live

I have so many questions/ hardly get any answers/ The one's that haven't spoken/ their tongues were cut out it's madness/ The sadness reigns/ with rain of total torture/ My face fastened to a board/ I implore that this mortal/ Has a dream/ to be seen complete/ Needs to be around/ to accomplish that feat/ He needs to stop the depression/ from over pressing his life/ This obsession needs correction/ so it's gotta happen tonight/ Diluted thoughts cross paths as I drive by/ in my mind it's so unclear/ I'm just too lost/ to find my way/ I just/ want to escape/ But I couldn't afford that ticket/so they turned me away/ I've had the cold breath/ of death brush by/ Never spared any emotion/ cause I ain't afraid to die/ I didn't even break a sweat/ when he pressed the barrel on my back/ My life has been so worthless/ my eyes never even flashed the past/ Dark days is mostly/ approaching closely/ Death of my soul/ and the reaper be hosting/ Shivers from the depths/ kept me from a sober life/ Quiver at the thought/ ought to make it a lonely time/ I don't recognize/ this stranger staring back at me/ With the same puzzled look/ then I realize who it be/ Like a book/ I study all the Ole English/ Sickened at the sight of me/ I slam a bottle shameless/ Flour and water/ it's getting harder to stomach this shit/ Bread and gravy for two weeks/ F*CK I'm such an alcoholic/ Tremble from the loneliness/ and fakin my life/ I'm more scared of livin/ than cutting my wrists with a knife/ I haven't lived a life/ in a long while/ I'm an unsolved mystery/ a cold case file/ My world begins to crumble/ it was already rubble/ So the chances of my survival/ are something troubled/ I have so many questions/ hardly get any answers/ The one's that haven't spoken/ their tongues were cut out it's madness/ The sadness reigns/ with rain of total torture/ My face fastened to a board/ I implore that this mortal/ Has a dream/ to be seen complete/ Needs to be around/ to accomplish that feat/ He needs to stop the depression/ from over pressing his life/ This obsession needs correction/ so it's gotta happen tonight/