Dreams Of An Adolescent

Got faith in me, I gotta make it out I remember days, graduation, back at momma house Heart crying out, can't punch the wall Faith been tiring out TV ain't mounted Mattress, bed rails, sinking in I pray I'm moving out What's even worse was moving family into my momma house The unfairness, it was daily madness, took the deeper route Uncomfortably dealing with tensions From both sides in this house And still trying to lead Wish my pops had planted better seeds Instill a man in me, broken promises that I can't leave From my mind, it's been all times that I was waiting by the sea Just a dad to call Learned forgiveness, looked into the mirror I got God leading me, clear my mind, I needed peace Know I still got this passion, even when my life seem bleak I can't give up now, I pray I'll be that star I need to be Family problems, I just wanna financially see increase Generational wealth, I know that stream gon' start with me Hopping out the stands, wish my dad was there, I hit a three Senior prom, going on trips, visits to university I still love him, I just wish we had more memories to keep Your seed is larger than you weep Wishing life was different, but I cannot change what made me, me I'm a Be, God'll lead, no hesitation when I breathe Feel success in the air, praying my people be free And stay free, feel the children, homicide on PC Grief on TV, I just wanna leave Follow your heart, smile When times get hard, just stay up, you know your heart now Forgive yourself, it's self-love, and it's your walk now Walking through it, rise above, don't let your heart down Just smile, smile, follow your heart, smile When times get hard, just stay up, you know your heart now Forgive yourself, it's self-love, and it's your walk now Walkin' through it, rise above, don't let your heart down Just smile, smile Thoughts from these skylines, stood up for something, had to realize I put my past behind, but can't forget the roughest times Seeing mama deal with relations, what's too much to cry No father figures, just enough to pass the time and by Couldn't believe it, a man cheating on my mama in multiple weekends Failed marriages, I know this last one, she gon' keep it Pray for her blessing, used to wish my mom and pops was still connected Would've had a meal at seven, cause Lord knows it's different Living in two-parent homes Seem less likely in ghettos, it's segregated zones, I see it's normal for others Opposite of my color, money passed down for generations Three sisters and brothers, but million-dollar homes Far away from where I speak, so many kids losing hope In these city streets, endless cycles, opportunities That's away from reach, I know my purpose And I know I make a way for we, we gotta be Higher than statistics when you know you black Don't let them judge your character to be You one of them ones that can change the world by any means Keep God first, just stay free, your mindset gave you the key To make it out this next chapter, dreaming for cool, sun breeze I will be the first millionaire to change my family dream Stress-free, sleep in hammock by lemons and palm trees I'ma be the first shift to get us out of poverty We finally free