Heartless Desires, Pt. 1

Love portions heart aches the sky's fallen Loving too much something that I do often Emotional walls closing in but my eyes open Character speaks for itself and it's well spoken I would tell you how I feel but it's not important Cause you been distant And it's clear you don't want involvement Emotions fluctuate like a broken scale Miss me with the long texts You know I don't take those well Should've listened to my gut and never took the risk Now here I am Making songs bout how I miss this chick Same problems just a different day You tell me that you love me And change your mind the next day How do you expect me to not go insane? I make songs I don't meditate That's my only getaway I'll say exactly how I feel and never shy away And when life gave me lemons I took them and made lemonade You just missed the old me, it wasn't love isn't? And when I said that I miss you you took a chance innit And then you realized nah it was all a gimmick We both knew it wasn't real, it wasn't love was it? FaceTime every night didn't mean nothing Lately I just keep a dog, he gon do the barking Cause when I talk you never listen You don't pay attention Thought this shit would last forever That was my assumption Feeling like a nomad without a road map I'd give up everything if it means that we could go back To fix it all I mean everything that's been holding us back Cause we never had a problem and you know that I lost all the patience that I thought I had Pains on my upper back From carrying all these lover bags Eyes still shining but my heart is pitch black When you get this message can you call me back?