Awkward Smile

The pressure weighing heavy, hard on my soul I feel nickel plated but my heart made of gold Medusa love confusing us, turned me to stone When you look in my eyes you don't know me no more Or ever, forever I'm giving too much Trying to make it better for whoever I claim to love But I'm exhausted from always trying too much So when they calling, I'm stalling before I pick up Nice to see ya, it's been awhile Hard to speak of the reasons I won't come around You should see us, turned to strangers You don't know us now I can see it in ya face when you look at me with yo awkward smile Really I'm running from talking Cause I don't wanna use caution When I be telling you everything that you have cost me Feeling like Jesus when speaking on people that cross me Now the old me doesn't exist he's dead in coffin Carrying more than I bargained Hero take all in, when I take all in Feeling defeated my knees is the reason I'm walking Speak on the evils then people don't wanna be bothered When it's they garbage I'm left to clean up the mess that they brought in Like a janitor standing stranded I'm sick of the chances That I been giving to people that don't even notice the damage I'm giving my heart to the people that's taking advantage Talking bout love but I'm not talking about the romances This for my friends, my family tree Planted tragedies, wish I could take it all back Back to the day they came after me Mama is dead with no grave, I should've been casualty Instead I had to leave, taking us back to a family Damaged bout half of me Nice to see ya, it's been awhile Hard to speak of the reasons I won't come around You should see us, turned to strangers You don't know us now I can see it in ya face when you look at me with yo awkward smile