Dear Diary

I believe the diary was create For people who didn't have the courage To speak those thoughts out loud You know so In a way they feel it is the same As speaking those thoughts out loud Writing them in a page but Really it's just trapping those words and those thoughts Forever Versus speaking those words right there in the moment And letting all those things and feeling go Free Uh Somehow I feel like it's my last days But don't be sad if I pass way I done walk for miles on this pathway Still don't see no signs on this road What does this path say Sometimes I feel like I been trapped in the dirt Cuz I've been putting in the work But I feel it don't work It's hard to pick up the shovel When you burying hurt Cuz your arms is weak From always carrying dirt Can't even find the words to speak When you trapped in the mind I been thinking about the past It's hard to leave it behind I don't want to play the victim But I'm sick of the lies I'm sick of giving my feelings To bitches that never tried Trying to hide the hurt They say a man should never cry But I'm crying worse When I'm looking up to the sky Like it's fireworks Cuz my mother never replies When I'm trying to search For reason to be alive Instead of die on Earth Cuz I swear I slowly been giving in Thinking about my problems It got me writing this shit again I'm just trying to get to the money Counting them dividends Even though I'm rolling I'm tired Michelin Thinking bout my memories as a kid Missing them Now I'm losing all of my life Trying to do business Crazy how to hurt can be big From the littlest I'm just trying to hold on to grip But I'm the little pig This Little Piggy didn't go off to the market Naw This Little Piggy ran off without talking Now this little Piggy's living off in the forest Blocking the worries It's shielding his rain Ain't stopping the pouring But it ain't stopping his story This has got to be for me This is now not forever I just got to have Glory If I could go back to the past I'll clean it all up Then it's right back to the future I'll hop in the DeLorean Just beware of my thorns If you go picking exploring Cuz I was scorn I was torn When I was timid and growing Now beware of the horns You really been warned Said I'm handing em porn Cuz it's f*ck what you on Dear diary Dear diary Dear diary Dear diary Uh Everybody taking kindness for weakness I try to be the nicest when I'm feeling the meanest You really need a ice pick Cuz my heart is been freezing I just show em to the exit Everybody be leaving So I don't even get attached cuz my feelings is dead Have you ever fell in love with someone the moment you met Then they turn around and tell you they love another instead Now the only time you see em is a vision in head Now y'all not even speaking Not even call or a text And you don't even know who the other partner in bed Just thinking bout all the words you wanted but never said Now you just having flashbacks And they full of regrets Like do you know what it's like to live a life all alone When you want to be lifeless until ya life is almost gone Do you know what it's like to be fucked over by ya own But instead of holding it against em you just got to move on Yeah it probably hurted But you got to stay strong So get yo bags packed Mad fast we getting gone Cuz you half assed Backtracked but now we grown We can't have that Fast cash is what we on If they can't grasp that Bag back leave em alone Til we pass that rough patch Won't need a loan We done ask that Got back nothing on phone So when that bag fat Don't ask I'm never home Dear diary Dear diary Dear diary Dear diary Dear diary Dear diary