God's Rebuttal

Dear God I'm coming to you because Lately it feels like I have lost faith and I don't know what else to do I don't know who else to turn to and I don't even know if turning to you is the right thing to do because Sometimes I can't even find the words to even Say anything Fading way Feelings is fading way Emotions used to be more colorful Now it's faded gray, safe to say (You gotta let that shit go man) That my past problems making me hate today Face to face as I stand in this mirror Eyes getting teary but we facing today Standing in place (F*ck, I'm just so tired of this shit man) Cuz I been running for so long, no longer running away I'm chasing a dream, like I'm sleep at the bank It's not as easy as you think but I'm making it seem Praying for me (Amen) I'ma wait on my knees until God open up the gates Give heaven to me, I'm losing faith sometimes Honestly, I rarely pray at times Only talk to you when it's bad, don't wanna waste ya time Wasted time, wondering why you have to take my mom? I took it all for granted but granted I thought I had more time to Laugh and love, grab and hug, feeling sad as f*ck Some days I feel the meanest, I mean its cuz I done had enough I packed it up, hit the road, hard to come back in touch Some people out of pocket like when ya change ain' adding up It didn't register but me I couldn't tell ya such I took some time just to find I couldn't tell ya much Hit my line, press decline don't wanna pick it up I say I'm fine when I'm lying, who really gives a f*ck Cuz everybody hurting, some lost to they purpose Just a coffin in service, a zombie on surface Brainwashed 'til they dead, f*ck that laundry detergent Same life everyday, f*ck that monotonous version I know you got a plan for me, I'm more than happy to see But you got everybody problem, is that a problem for me? I been trying to breathe, feel like I been dying for weeks Instead of lying to sleep, thinking bout the words I been trying to speak My Child Did Thou Have Faith Not In Me? But Thy Own Greed? To question the path I have laid for thou to walk And instead thou stray away Lost in faith I been giving you everything that you can ever dream You blame it on me You selfish in every name, with the family thing Don't make it a beef I'll curse you in heaven name, I'm giving you hell again You living in heat I can put you through hella pain, praying you feel the same Or struggle to eat Don't talk 'bout yo mama, I'm taking yo mama You need to spend time with yo father Don't need to remind ya, that it wasn't his fault My child you need to be kinder You need to grow up and go heal from whatever it is that got you always feeling bothered Don't pray to the Lord just handle yo business If it is serious then I'll be honored You talk about change like you ain' change Like many others ain' thinking the same I put many people inside of ya life You was more of a burden didn't give anything But you holler 'bout fame like that's gone change The bitter man inside you slowly became 'Til you have proven you're worthy of being awarded Tell me should I give you a name? An angel in flames with flames in yo veins Get lost in a bottle and high as a plane I'm willing to give you the help that you need but you gotta be willing to go through the change Or the problem remain then I'm the blame Cursing my name and it's highly profane I've given my all since the start of humanity Given my son and I got 'em back slain I had to revive 'em Now I revive you Like a bird with the feathers they know how to fly And now you can fly too Living through pain is just building up strength You a survivor I put you through what I know that you can take Yo personal problems Don't sit and whine about it, wasting time about it Constantly crying bout it acting like you not bothered by it When I'm fighting fires, unintention ignition You burning bridges while I quiet yo riot fighters You don't even know how many try to hide it And confiding bout it, never honest bout it I'm just hoping you modest bout it Because of yo temper, I notice you hot about it Like a heated stove Walking around with an attitude, mad at who? Everybody should be mad at you You don't notice because that's what bad habits do Having you moving off latitude Otherwise I have to do what I have to do Saving some souls I can't rapture you I have been given right back and I haven't got back from you Making me feel I don't matter to you And it's sad to be true that it had to be you Couldn't believe it, it's baffling proof After everything that has happen to you Losing yo faith is the last you can do Pray to the devil, a Blasphemous move Forever in hell sound lavish to you? I know you mean well come back to your roots And all is forgiving, I'm happy to prove