I Still Love You

Mhmm Hmmm I don't know No more I tried I tried I don't know no more Lately I been loving from a distance Nowadays feeling shallow with a friendship Existence feeling slimmer than this pen is Pretending I been living goal and inches But its so far away, old scars still harming me Chest feeling numb my heart decayed I been losing all my cards to play You don't even know, how it is for a young nigga like me Feeling so lost, feeling like I'm trapped behind walls And everybody here to sight see I can't even speak, people don't hear what I say Feeling like a shadow I fade Even when we talk then we just miscommunicate So what's the point of speaking if we gonna disagree Cuz everybody gotta different view of the problem But when we talk about it then it's not a problem So I been going back and forward with the options If I should let it go or I continue being bothered Probably, never gonna drop it if I'm being honest Because I was the that was honest Treated like a broken promise I done let 'em off the hook after my real wasn't acknowledged They done threw me to the wolves after I did 'em all a solid I still love, I still love you Won't give up, I won't give up on you After everything you put me through You done cut my veins, My blood over you After all this pain, I'll still hug you 'Cause at the end none changed I still love you Feeling dead for a minute Pretending that y'all didn't even mess up my living I get it, it was a bigger mess than intended For siblings, y'all didn't even check on my living In the end, left me in the wind Went from living in a house to living with a friend Sleeping on his couch trying to hustle for the ends In a one bed apartment let the struggling begin I lost my sister whip and now I ain' gotta car Work a 16 hour shift after work I gotta walk A Four hour walk for a drive that ain' that far I done cried so many nights to the sky I talk to Lord Asking for a change, I done gave up everything If you ask 'em all about it I am still the one to blame It's seven years later, still wrapped up in the chains Cuz they never paid a cost for the currency exchanged Bets believe that it changed my life For better and for worse I had to pay that price Walking to them lawyers had to pay off strikes If you deal yo own hand then you can play yo cards rights I was swinging for the fences but they threw me all strikes I made it through them trenches living in them hard nights No one gave me hand outs not even lending advice Lately I been mean, my scars is from when I was nice Uh huh I still love, I still love you Won't give up, I won't give up on you After everything you put me through You done cut my veins, My blood over you After all this pain, I'll still hug you 'Cause at the end none changed I still love you