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I'm mad as f*ck that I have to say what I have to say Never thought I'd see the day we'd given up on average ways We steady switching, growing distant No time to stay No telephones, no speaking We just passing days Some hate in the roots slowly starting to surface Like what you say about someone won't make it back to that person It's for certain that our pride's over wording what's hurting Negative feelings that's lurking, it got us missing the purpose Shit it's sad to see the closest is switching in reality Trying to put it past me, in the back of my mind it's nagging me I been mad at peeps cuz apparently they just been dragging me Passionately give a f*ck cuz I hate the way they attacking me Not even asking me, like f*ck what I say They make assumptions bout the case Don't even know bout the case And now they notion in place What I'm suppose to go up and say? That"What you said about me true and you hope I'm Ok" I'll rather cut off cuz ain' not point y'all F*ck all that tough talk I love you all to death but honestly I feel like f*ck y'all If you want a war then nowadays I got my gun drawn From all the blood drawn Cuz the blade it went deep from cut scars So I bandaged it then I abandoned it As a man from kid, when I should've spoke on the damage did I just stranded it, planted it deep in the desert Deserted damages, the plan is shit Cuz now it is harder to understand the shit Dismantle kid, everyday I feel I'm a break I feel the passionate through distance slowly slipping away Mad everyday from mistakes that I need to embrace Easy to say but my actions getting slower to make I need to cut loose cuz I been up too late And I'm confused on how this love do Now it's complicated with us two Yes I love you but I'm twisted up in my dumb rules Cuz I been cut too many times to love I trust you I just don't Love like I use to Trust like I use to I don't hug like I use to I'm not who they once knew I'm not who I used to be I don't love like I use to Trust like I use to I don't hug like I use to Enough of the use to I'm not who I used to be Love act like a sedative Numb to the situation then it's repetitive Love's like a lung the way it got you in hell and shit It's like I'm born without a tongue the way I don't tell 'em shit Closed mouths never eat, f*ck it I ain' speaking at all So when you wrong, you fucking right I ain' heated at all, I just leave it with y'all As I bleed from my scars while I reach for the stars Cuz I just want some fucking peace for my dawgs I can't applaud when you fraud, ain' no need to be fake Because we all got some flaws just be true to yo trait I move with the grace cuz I recall my younger days I was misusing the faith, karma came back And I been true to this day I walk on solid ground, f*ck it lock my shoes in a safe F*ck the dude you portray, when you think you talking 'bout me I'm moving states to make a way and this the way I'm repaid Like everybody gotta eat I'm tryna bring 'em all plates But it's ok cuz today I'm true to my ways I'll never change just part of my heart slightly decayed But still remain, a part of me don't wanna behave But I refrain from being a beast and letting this dog out the cage It's a tendency retaining the inner me It's belittling, a penalty if I'm pushing the play upon a sibling No dribbling, carry on the play baggage is killing me Filled up with reasons that's draining my energy Really I don't Love like I use to Trust like I use to I don't hug like I use to I'm not who they once knew I'm not who I used to be I don't love like I use to Trust like I use to I don't hug like I use to Enough of the use to I'm not who I used to be