Pathetic

Baby you're choking me But not in the way that I like I've taken every step I can to avoid you in this life Not that it was needed You never looked back after leavin But to keep myself from pleadin I tucked myself under a rock Cus ain't no chance of peepin or chance meetins if I'm no where to be sought Lately I been crushed by writer's block Eyes been stuck on watchin clocks An already unsocial human usin her new ruins as an excuse to avoid the flocks All these flowers I laid at ur feet and every petal you plucked was "loved not" I know I gotta release you We've been apart almost as long as I was allowed to keep you I'm always reminded of you and I don't even seek you I'm see through I couldn't hide this slice from view even if I needed to Pullin the last building blocks of my foundation like a game of Jenga Hoppin like a kanga back and forth between knowin myself as I've been formed But seein my reflection as a stranger And I'm always sorry much later Recently accepted I'm skeptic of the picture though I'm the painter Where's Neo when you need him to flip the matrix in ur favor? This end was cold but I'd go forth for another go Dont matter if this blow was only the tip of the ripped glacier Baby you're written all across my soul and there's no erasers Honestly, you're so permanent there's no herbal that, or person that could push you out Recently went out to dinner on some shit you never woulda configured I was feelin cute and bouj' til after the food some music was slapped on to keep the mood And just like a werewolf coming thru on a full moon The song he so happened to choose was one you'd sing damn near every day that got me wooed Like a sick curse, tears dispersed and I couldn't renew my composure It just kept getting worse as I felt the lack of closure Just a stoner who's sober missing the arms she needs to hold her But them and their owner are now polar opposite to where I dwell Baby we went through hell And never made it back Guess I'll never make sense of how we ended up where we're at Yeah I keep beatin this dead horse w a bat It's sad I tried to fuckin connect with a new prospect but your embedded in my head And I guess if this is my new state of being then I really am the walking dead Oh how I miss the feel of your flesh Nah I'm pathetic I can't help it Ima just keep w the poetics Conscious noetics Crazy my most prized relic was simply synthetic I know you felt it! It was epic not just metric What the f*ck did you intend to be met with? You scooped your hands into a pond of endless love Saw me in your palm, stared in awe til I lost my charm Then you tilted your wrist to watch me fall… And not even back into the water You just let me die on the concrete unsympathetic to my slaughter And I'll probably love you til I'm here no longer Pathetic