Heartbreak after heartbreak

I swear this pain is so expensive Now everybody acting different I been walking down these dark roads Lately I been feeling missing Gotta keep a lock on my feelings can't let em out I should've knew you was capping you got me tweaking having doubts Deleted all of my socials for you ain't care about no clout You hit me right where it's sensitive now my heart been bleeding out I should've knew you was finessing Skeptical at first I started checking Then got blinded now it's f*ck you and yo presence One day imma be a legend No more soaking in that bullshit you be selling Everybody go thru sumn Buhh you playing with yo blessings Chasing after love is like walking around with a blind fold Steady waiting for a text got me wondering where the time go Catching feelings too quickly I can get over you shit mind blowing False advertising yo ass ain't solid I'm already knowing Time to drop da rope nd say f*ck it I'm lettin go I use to rant Buhh now I step nd say nothing I'm finna smoke Don't wanna talk leave me alone nd don't forget to shut my door Can't trust a bitch no matter wha she say they fuckin onna low You gotta go Damaged tatted on my face I'm Lowkey scared to be committed They gone snake you at yo worse dats why a nigga independent Gotta brain was never dumb Buhh lord knows that I be sinning On a mission to a milli that's the only thing I'm missing Breathing heavy I be mad asf Be tryna keep my cool Can't catch a break they always judging come nd step into my shoes I caught the blues I'm in the stu just spitting facts that's what I do Be tryna chill without a pill my mental fucking up my mood Everyday I pray I make it I'm gone get us out da hood Be going hard in all my songs I'd drop a feature if I could Idk why Buhh I need a break from myself I needa eat Buhh Ian hungry shit ain't good for my health Don't piss me off cause when I break I lose control so get tf up out my space Don't ask no questions bitch I'm heated don't need niggas in my face Built up pain I'm use to anything ain't shit that I can't take The day I lose my mama imma quit nd turn the other way Got so much anger in my chest ya never know when I might snap Been tryna hold it all together you can hear it in my raps I zip my lips nd don't say shit I'll say some shit I can't take back I pick the cheese up off the floor cause who tf gone feed a rat Been seeing visions of me rich be counting bands up in my dreams My voice ain't deep Buhh dis shit hard be feeling soulful when I sing Sometimes I overdue it drunk asl be cautious when I'm leaning Sometimes I feel like I be dreaming I be putting thought into every song I write I love dis shit I feel like I been rapping all my life Last song hit 30k feel like I earned my stripes I push it to my full potential every time I strike Mixed emotions got me so confused, Gotta keep it all together for I blow my fuse Spending hundreds on Dese promos to make my dream come true Release my pain behind the mic the only way that I can fight my blues Gotta keep a lock on my feelings can't let em out I should've knew you was capping you got me tweaking having doubts Deleted all of my socials for you ain't care about no clout You hit me right where it's sensitive now my heart been bleeding out I should've knew you was finessing Skeptical at first I started checking Then got blinded now it's f*ck you and yo presence One day imma be a legend No more soaking in that bullshit you be selling Everybody go thru sumn Buhh you playing with yo blessings Chasing after love is like walking around with a blind fold Steady waiting for a text got me wondering where the time go Catching feelings too quickly I can get over you shit mind blowing False advertising yo ass ain't solid I'm already knowing Time to drop da rope nd say f*ck it I'm lettin go I use to rant Buhh now I step nd say nothing I'm finna smoke Don't wanna talk leave me alone nd don't forget to shut my door Can't trust a bitch no matter wha she say they fuckin onna low You gotta go