I Just Wanna Die

Oh, antidepressants, ugh Oh, can't give you a controlled substance Here, take these Ha ha ha Yeah, Sometimes I feel like I just wanna die Really I just wanna feel I'm alive Gotta survive, so still Ima try But all this anxiety's killing my vibe Nother appointment, I cried to my psyche So disappointed, inside is a fight Tell me it's alright to not be alright Taking suicide light, bitch, it might be tonight This shit is heavy, this shit is not trendy I am not Melly, this shit could be deadly I don't find it edgy when I'm where the edge be It's really not healthy when no one can help me Say to myself you can live if I let me Faith is the only thing keeping me safe Wanna be stress-free, not let it affect me So let me ask Shellz, cuz she can relate Killa K I just wanna die Sometimes I do But I still try But I'm still trying though So I'll just cry For real Instead of suicide If I was to take my life, who'd really care Do I have to die just for you to be there Would you maybe then give my music a share It's like no one appreciates you when you're here Lotta things bother me wish that they didn't Obsessive-compulsive disorder with symptoms 8% rarity is my condition I count down the days til I get my prescription Yeah, I take pills but don't mean I'm addicted I do understand you can become dependent Ain't going away it's something that I live with My doctors don't know how to even depict it Nowadays lotta meds gotta bad name They treat everybody who's on em the same Die or get high til you f*ck up your brain While the people who need 'em just suffer in pain I just wanna die No wonder I feel suicidal But I still try The world operates backwards So I'll just cry Let 'em know, Shellz Instead of suicide I been tryna find where my mind is I was distant before this virus No support, tired of trying I keep going when I feel like dying I still smile, after crying Say it don't hurt, I'd be lying Though I'm tired, I'm still trying Still don't stop when I feel like dying I just wanna die But I still try So I'll just cry Instead of suicide If you don't want no problems Just give me my Alprazolam