Here Lies A Dream (Freestyle)

It's getting harder every day to believe that Heaven is real If God's really for us, then why does He want us to squeal? At this point, I think He's got His favourites, and that's how I feel And the rest of us were born to spend our lives tryna heal I'm just twisting and turning, every night I cannot sleep Feel like my life is gon' be cut short, like a YouTube reel There's this little voice that's telling me to take my soul and leave I'm gon' meet my sister in the afterlife, that's the appeal Something tells me that I'll give in, but for now I'm buying time Premonitions of my death are way closer than those of life So now a nigga just existing outta sight and out of mind Feeling anxious so I'm staying home and closing all the blinds And I'm writing rhymes, cause i'm tryna trick my mind Thug it out like it's alright, tell my siblings that I'm fine And my niggas think I'm nice, so I play along and smile I mean, what else is there to do cause everybody got they life Can't be bitching and moaning Yeah, life is fucking me right now, but I'd rather kneel, and be holy It's therapeutic for me, I might switch up the topic My thoughts are slowly distorting 25 years in this Earth, and I feel like I'm dream walking Had a convo with my mom, she said my life is evolving There's nothing more to it, and that I should kinda enjoy it It's really hard to enjoy it, maybe it isn't it for me Stuck with one question now, man when the f*ck is it stopping? Tryna unravel the answers to the purpose of living Are we here for something or it's just a little sight-seeing? Are we free or we just puppets for the immortal beings? Are we sure we not a series on a service for streaming If you really think about it, at the end we all lose All that pain, and suffering, it's just the tip of the clues The most terrifying horrors don't even make it to news Maybe it's my views, but don't judge me cause we don't wear the same shoes, please