I'm Sorry (feat. Momentous)

I'm sorry, but I gotta choose me I gotta put myself first and try to plant these seeds Reading an autopsy for my feelings as we speak Been with snakes so much that I've learned to shed my skin This is me trying to heal Conceptualizing my insecurities on this beat Smiling while they pray on my fall like varsity fees I gotta kneel more for wisdom and life from the tree I'm beginning to view the world for what it truly is A hate-infested place, filled with envy and greed My only sense of hope comes from the books I read Contradicting as me and my dreams are playing hide-and-seek Mama used to say "you can be who you wanna be" Never really told me what it takes to be a King Drowning in my thoughts, big enough to fill the sea "The Way of the Superior Man" is at the core of how I think I'm sorry, but I gotta choose me I love this game, I live this game There's a thousand other guys waiting in the wings who are obsessed with this game Obsession's gonna beat talent every time You got all the talent in the world, but are you obsessed Eish, ngyaxolisa, but I gotta choose me I've seen the worst from soldiers who were with me in the field Fought together then they turn around and shoot to kill Now they telling me "We going far", but really, who's "we" Ngyaxolisa, but I gotta choose me I have to cut you off if I really wanna succeed Premonitions of my demise whenever I think I've already had a peek of the casket waiting for me Uh, this is me trying to heal Would you even cope if you felt the way that I feel Overthinking every misunderstanding I see They will help you try to pick the lock while they hiding the key So many times, I had to kneel So many times, I contemplated death so I don't feel So many times, I had to wear a smile against my will And so many times I wish I could ask God for an appeal Ngyaxolisa My biggest fear is retiring broke Ngife ngingena fokol even though I always label myself as an artist of note Heee, kuba yindvodza akukho lula and ndvodza muntu uyakhula Impandla hlezi itinika mandla, geen nyuku geen dladla Tintsanga takho tiphumelele, some of them they be living i-soft life le boma suburbs Living a better life got a kid and a wife, wena usele udlobeselesele Likhona likhona, mathuba akhona Yekela likhona noku khononda ukhone kutentela Nowadays lodla indlala uyatenta Wena uyatenta labanye badla ma tender Call me i-sell out mei outy angisibhayi Now vision will monitor my actions I'm on a quest for financial evolution, hence I'm crafting resolutions Not for a new year but for likusasa lekufanele lichakate tsotsi Ungabese uyatingabata, invest on payday Don't get me wrong mei outy, I am still real But I'm keeping it real to myself this time around Ngoba bantu abakhatsalelwa kuthenjwa, kugcwele tigubhu tika poison langaphandle I'm done complaining le gravy train ngiyayi gova Noma kunesi ghada nobhova, ngenkani ngiyayi reya Yemagenge besisonkhe but now usually nginokushaya isilolo Heading for a better tomorrow, kufuneka isjwevo clever They say knowledge is key, but I say money is power forever