HELLSING

Now I wake up from my sleep Ask my god my peace to keep I've been wading in the deep I can feel it start to creep All these tears I used to weep All them times that I was weak All these wounds I used to bleed This the monster that you breed I could feel scratching Burning in my veins Little kid Sweet girl I'll never be the same Head high Soul cracked Damn That's truly where I'm at Keep a smile Emotions Down I can't let 'em see me sweat That's how I survived hell Getting their feel like it's brail Put your heart on that scale I promise you fail I got demons Darkness Bonded Branded by their sins like it's garnish Now i gotta carry all those problems The hardest thing Is watching them get everything I ever wanted Made it common only if they knew the price They'd see me different If I'm honest I've been conscious Lord don't get me started I've been starving Want to feel solid But chipping been a constant I'm at wits end this shit is too obnoxious You know exactly what I been through Times I was a target Monsters sneaking in my closest Cracking open shower doors Man That shit just make nauseous All those nights of feeling haunted Cause this truly godless Man it Make me want vomit Have you had to commune with your demons? Smile in the face of your evil ? Break bread with a heathen? Like sorries gon' make it all even Sometimes I feel there can't be gods Cause you are still breathing Dark thoughts every night Is my plight I can't lie I don't sleep well without my Glocks by side And my Dogs at the foot of my bed PTSD in my head Scriptures and spells etched in my skin For protection Hope at the end there's a severance All those memories Of being so helpless Screaming for god I was desperate Hell sings so I'm restless