Dark Thoughts (What Do You See)

How many times you look in the mirror and stare at yaself, what do you see How many thoughts do you try to block, 'cause they get so dark, what did you think Some of the time i'm seeing my beauty, but half of the time i see a beast Sometimes my thoughts be gettin' so scary, that i swear to god it wasn't from me Uh, I don't trust peoples' intentions So many stab wounds in my back, i question all of my friendships Wet floor signs never show up walkin' on a muddy path, i should've been slipped Grindin' so long i should've been rich, my patience sittin' on a thin strip And those are not half of the thangs that's constantly plaguin' my brain, I'm bout to let loose I want to hide like a recluse, I'm tired of family disputes, but i'm the glue That keep 'em together and whether they know it or not, i'm carryin' All this weight on my shoulders, 'cause i am the shovel to dig out the holes they buried in I'm wantin' more than they want for they self, my momma complacent with just gettin' by She shut out the world and stay to herself, but don't wanna end up alone when she die I'm walkin' with God, a monster inside is tellin' me dance with the devil to rise Leave everybody you love to the side, they baggage that's holdin' you back from the prize I'm thinkin' back, to after that gig, i thought about crashin' my car off the bridge I'm glad that i didn't, but what if i did, what will i leave when i no longer live I'm still hearin' that voice, its louder in moments of weakness, got me sleepless Then i look in the eyes of my wife and my son and it desist How many times you look in the mirror and stare at yaself, what do you see How many thoughts do you try to block, 'cause they get so dark, what did you think Some of the time i'm seeing my beauty, but half of the time i see a beast Sometimes my thoughts be gettin' so scary, that i swear to god it wasn't from me How many times you look in the mirror and stare at yaself, what do you see How many thoughts do you try to block, 'cause they get so dark, what did you think Some of the time i'm seeing my beauty, but half of the time i see a beast Sometimes my thoughts be gettin' so scary, that i swear to god it wasn't from me Oh my, I used to have dreams on the other side I didn't wanna die til' i done a lot, I used to think it's my time but its runnin' out, my God Bless these people with the same mentality, and help my soul get through this reality I promise you that I'm a positive person, but please lift me up when my feelins on gravity More tired, 'cause sometimes nigga I don't really want it no more I feel like damn this job I'm at and damn these fuckin' bills, is this what I'm 'posed to live for I'm runnin' round St. Pete rappin' in the same locations, a stand up guy but get no ovation The mirror used to tell me that you aint shit nigga, but Abriella right now is my motivation Worked overtime my brain crashed in, didn't want life here to pass him I had the energy, still was incomplete, and i kept on losin' my traction They used to tell me I was innocent, but out-loud, nah I can't mention it Its gettin' blurry still I see clearly, year 2020 where my vision is Monster inside still an honest kid, I couldn't stop to live Reflections are truth and it's hard to fib, but I wouldn't tell a lie just to plead the fifth What's my options, undecided, Paris in a year and a brand new project Whats BLU stand for, the truth don't hide it, the best lyricist and that's undenyin' How many times you look in the mirror and stare at yaself, what do you see How many thoughts do you try to block, 'cause they get so dark, what did you think Some of the time i'm seeing my beauty, but half of the time i see a beast Sometimes my thoughts be gettin' so scary, that i swear to god it wasn't from me How many times you look in the mirror and stare at yaself, what do you see How many thoughts do you try to block, 'cause they get so dark, what did you think Some of the time i'm seeing my beauty, but half of the time i see a beast Sometimes my thoughts be gettin' so scary, that i swear to god it wasn't from me