Virginity

I remember now I was probably like 14 when it went down Funny thing is me and her ain't even friends now I mean it ain't like we got hate or nothing And I don't know why we didn't wait or nothing We didn't even go on a date or nothing But it be like that Dang!!! Give me a second I'll be right back I gotta go wipe these tears Cuz right now I got fears Cuz I got nephews And honestly they about to be that age Where they start facing these pressures and I hope that they'll never have to see that page That I been through Let tell you a lil story about what I went through Man it's simple, but it's sinful So this second girl, I met this person on the internet All I know is she said she a freak I'm like aw that's neat and I'm into that So we met up, I was like 15 she was like 20 sumthin And I ain't even think that she looked that good But I was thirsty and I wanted some So we talking, me and her walkin through the park I know that sound all sweet, cuz that how most relationships start Well this time, is actually kinda where it end Cuz she put the condom on, pulled her pants down, put the coat on us and we did it Right then And now that I think about it, somebody actually did walk by But me and here just sat still, and had the audacity to say hi And I'm thinking like...why? Why the heck did I do this, And why is it I wanna tell you this There a part of me that's feelin like screw this This is my life, Don't tell nobody I'll just take it to the grave But he who keeps his life will lose it And he who loses his life will be saved Well bump it then, I'll let it go It's embarrassing but I'll let you know These the type of things that I went through from being convinced to be sexual From TV to Radio and don't forget the kids at school Who if they think you a virgin still will crack jokes and they'll a pick at you So I'm willing to embarrass me If this could be some therapy For somebody goin through this I wish I had somebody there with me I wish somebody woulda shared with me How to make this decision with clarity Cuz the thought of being a virgin still Was for real straight scaring me I started to feel like I had no worth, I started to feel like I had no value Cuz everybody else had experience, in a field that I didn't know how to So maybe this song is in vain, maybe nobody feels this stress too But if these things do relate, well then great cuz it's not just you It's not just you It's not just you