Bottom

Crawl out the mud, I callous my mind I'm swimmin' in friction like Goggins Either that or drink myself into oblivion But that's the other me Man who rings the bell to find his way out I just lie to weather myself and let it be Open dialogue with the world planting seeds of doubt Conversations with everyone else Forgetting to conference myself I wait for Godot, subconscious is built for comfort I'm mentally hard as Charmin, at home I pass on the other guy Never met or acquainted myself with these faults So if you're looking you can find me American made in body and spirit another story I'm nothing more than a stat and the person that I would never be At the bottom, you can find me at the bottom struggling Trapped in my psyche, i'm hoping this feeling will bounce I'll numb it out, won't make a move but then run my mouth Take a peek over this fortress, feels like I want more than this Push my brain passed it's governor is torturous but gorgeous Behind these walls, I spoil and rot, I'm wasted heart I'm taking up my time with doubting when I should be taking souls Never met or acquainted myself with these struggles Never met or acquainted myself with these struggles So if you're looking you can find me…at the bottom American made in body you looking you can find me At the bottom, at the bottom Leaving nothing out on the table I'm taking what i've envisioned I'm laughing at everyone from these awful places they've never been At the bottom you can find me, at the bottom, struggling I've been churning this strength from weakness And owning my every trauma I'm finding the drive to thrive in my fears and now I kill the mirror At the bottom you can find me, at the bottom, struggling I'm conquering my body and spirit I'm overcoming Every battle you've encountered and refuse to fight it fuels me At the bottom, you can find me at the bottom struggling I'm loving digging deeper in the shit and passing haters Finding power in the fact you'd never wanna be where I'm at At the bottom, you can find me at the bottom struggling Never met or acquainted myself with these struggles Never met or acquainted myself with these struggles But these struggles they made me