Hear This

I don't know if anyone will ever hear this Dust storm running through my mind's never clearing It's my fault cuz everytime I get a feeling I hide it from the world on the inside I am screaming Well Maybe it's a sign Maybe I should stop overthinking all the time My heart was cut open right down the dotted line And Nothing came out that means nothing was inside It doesn't make sense Feel like my life is on film and I already know where the tape ends So why do I keep putting up with all these fake friends Fake smile fake Clay tell me when the fake ends Seems like no one knows All they think about is fancy cars and fancy clothes I'm really getting pissed cuz all my highs seem like lows Don't wanna feel like this so I just keep my eyes closed And I just keep pushing my feelings down down down If my soul was a speaker it probably wouldn't make sound I really hope that more of us can relate now Heart breaks feel like hard days only slow down I hate that I'm too scared to put all of my words out But maybe if I did I wouldn't feel so burned out Being a kid really makes you understand That life ahead is a maze I just wish i picked the right route Really thought more people cared Guess they never really meant the words that we shared It's like they left their heart on for way too long And it ran out love for me so we don't get along I can't believe it All these demons Clouded up my brain Yes they did Im In pieces I feel so ashamed It's okay I don't need this What I want is someone just to show where me the peace is I don't know if anyone will ever hear this I didn't write this song just so I can hold the tears in Music is my only outlet I wouldn't have a life or a dream at all without it so Ima keep writing these words down Every single day my motivation just gets burned down I just wanna lay in my bed Put a pillow on my head And do nothing until someone understands all that I said but I get the feeling that it's never gonna happen I swear these last few years fellt way longer than they have been I got distracted by attraction To the only person that I thought would help me get my satisfaction I get the feeling that it's never gonna happen I hope these next these few years are way better than they have been But then again like i said I can't get out of my bed until I find a reason too be happy I just keep pushing my feelings down down down If my soul was a speaker it probably wouldn't make sound I really hope that more of us can relate now Hard times feel like hard times never slow down I hate that I'm too scared to put all of my words out But maybe if I did I wouldn't feel so burned out Being a kid really makes you understand That life ahead is a maze I just wish i picked the right route