Pain Waves

I feel alone and I be talking to myself I keep trying to find a scripture I need help Momma keep telling me son keep your head up and just give it time Why the f*ck the ones around me take my peace of mind I got to speak up on this shit cause I got pain waves I feel so down and I been struggling for days It be like the ones that say they got you They never got you So I keep smoking these backwoods till I'm stuck like just like a fossil But I can't trip on this shit cause niggas ain't real like me Bruh don't speak on this shit knowing you dont feel like me It take a minute to tell them just how I'm feeling Why nobody understand all the pain and hurt that I'm dealing with So I stay dolo I'm feeling so low I'm trying to get gone But I know it's wrong Momma telling me that I can't stuff my pain inside a backwood And I'm like you right but for the moment this shit feel good And I keep asking how a nigga leave they son And that nigga know it's no fixing all the hurt that he done done I be thinking about my problems about to blow just like a bomb It's like I only get away from this shit when I make a song So I put all my feelings in a beat When I'm down I talk to Mary Jane till I'm up like a tree Know my partners feel that vibe that I'm hurting when they talking to me And I keep running away but this pain stalking me Shit I just had to take a little minute Let that motherfucker breathe for a little second You talk that real sometimes What it feel like when I'm walking down this road I know God sit on my shoulder but I keep feeling alone Try to smile when they around don't want to show whats going on I'm on edge my temper weighing thin Just like a thong I be speaking tryna send a little message Cause I know silence is deadly And a nigga don't want to be judged I can't talk to no reverend So I settle with a mic Trying to get this pain off tonight I be thinking just let it out and maybe it be alright