Reflection

If I tell you bout' my pain is you gon' listen Swear I'm tired of talking to myself If you there for me be there It's like Vietnam in my head bombs going off They like don't keep it all bottled in but that's what work for me How I keep a straight face been losing people close to me You had told me run it up a grave not where you pose to be All I seen got me on edge so watch how you approaching me Knowing I play ball but game of life been coaching me So much shit done happened I regret But ain't no do overs in life you can't get them seconds back All them times I cherish that I thought shit was bad then But shit I'll rather struggle then have to bury my friends How it go only depends on how you look at shit You can dwell on all your losses or try and rebuild the shit I don't talk bout' all my pain I rather not feel the shit Why I'm stuffing all these papers help me with not feeling shit I don't do this shit too often but let me try this shit for one time Listen for my messages don't listen for a punchline And if they get to dissing pull up beating just like Drumline Momma know I don't like to do it she be like Tay talk to me sometime If I tell you bout' my pain is you gon' listen Swear I'm tired of talking to myself If you there for me be there It's like Vietnam in my head bombs going off They like don't keep it all bottled in but that's what work for me How I keep a straight face been losing people close to me You had told me run it up a grave not where you pose to be All I seen got me on edge so watch how you approaching me Knowing I play ball but game of life been coaching me Come down to my feelings I ain't the best with the Conversating Sister be like Tay boy you a star I see your constellations Can't get a quick fix for this shit swear I'm tired of constant waiting Should I let that hurt go that I'm holding I been contemplating That pressure came and made a diamond If I fall back in that hole is anybody gonna' find me Better live your life to the fullest you gon' see ain't no rewinding Swear I been trying to keep my head up and stop from crying Swear I ain't lying Shit a everyday battle Tryna' clear my head I rather fight and be living Then give up and be dead If them boys sense any dissing Then they gon' paint the block red I be praying for forgiveness For everything that I did If I tell you bout' my pain is you gon' listen Swear I'm tired of talking to myself If you there for me be there It's like Vietnam in my head bombs going off They like don't keep it all bottled in but that's what work for me How I keep a straight face been losing people close to me You had told me run it up a grave not where you pose to be All I seen got me on edge so watch how you approaching me Knowing I play ball but game of life been coaching me