I Don't Understand (feat. Raechelle T. Forrest)

Sitting in the dark of my cold room Prone to have a meltdown Creeping up real soon My head's throbbing from the stress Of anxiety Waiting anxiously to be met With some good news Running on gas fumes Hardships they working me Hating how some people managed To bring out the worst in me Then flipped on me saying This ain't how you supposed to be I warned you not overstep Don't you see you hurting me Hope they fooling with the artistry And the God in me What I'm feeling deep Hard to describe It's wild when you tryna stay Down with the truth In the world where almost everybody Glorifies the lie That's the thoughts I hide Keep em' down inside Where it dwells Circle dwindled fast Gotta get my peace back like nobel I thought about at one time I thought I knew em' well Saw the fruits they put for show Never matched what they would tell So much doubt in me I don't know what is real Prayed for better days But the nights drive me insane I can't last here I'm way too far off track Succumbing to my heart's fears Cuz I don't understand Used to have it all figured out Used to have it all figured out Used to have it all figured out Look at it like It's making no sense I'm in a pit Ain't seen the light since Oh about a year or so I had targeted my route Trekking down the merry road 'Fore the lights had flickered out And now I'm like a kid in the dark Moving scarily Venting to a loved one They know what to say to ease Then all of a sudden get this gut feeling That I can never shake like Is it true that I care for you Way more than you care for me (Woah) Yeah I get it Know I overthink How come when I do Usually on the money point blank Don't tell me I'm bugging When I come to you I'm coming straight Lay it on the table Like it's silverware and dinner plates Very slow to heal up my deepest wounds From sharpest blades If I fade to black They'll be fine without me anyway Ain't it funny how I'm sounding like this And at this point today When I recall a time my optimism Outweighed everything Hold up wait Now I'm gunning for so many things I don't even know if they'll come my way Some pretty big plans that I've formulated failed I wonder if this here Is even meant for me Some folks God had me leave behind If it was up to me I'd take em For the ride When it comes to this I'm known To take up time That's what I get for keeping all of this inside So much doubt in me I don't know what is real Prayed for better days But the nights drive me insane I can't last here I'm way too far off track Succumbing to my heart's fears Cuz I don't understand Used to have it all figured out Used to have it all figured out Used to have it all figured out