I'm Trying

I've been so alone, been losing time Tryna find a reason to keep going but I'm lying Hate it when you leave me, girl you know that I've been trying F*ck all of these reasons I just wish you would be mine Hate it when I call you, you just go and hit decline I knew I couldn't force it but I had to fucking try Searching through the dark depths of my mind Tryna find a reason to keep going but I'm lying But I'm trying But I'm trying Trust me girl that I've been trying If I said I wasn't girl you'd know that I'd be lying F*ck all of these hoes you are the one that i've been wanting But I'm trying But I'm trying But I'm trying But I'm trying Trust me girl that I've been trying If I said I wasn't girl you know that'd I be lying F*ck all of these hoes you are the one that I've been wanting But I'm trying But I'm trying You could tell me lies While I stare down at your pretty eyes Thought you'd be the one to hold me tight But you thinking bout these other guys I thought we were forever in love But you act like you don't care no more I've been looking at you as a chore The love is lost, I can't be seeing you anymore My eyes like a river just forever flowing Really had me thinking I'm the only one Had me thinking bout the future like we was gonna make it But I look back now really couldn't take it Too much pain I'm tryna erase it But now I'm just pleading I'm begging I'm needing Wish you could see me now See how I'm feeling now See how you really got me doing now Got some false hope maybe we could fix it But now I know shit's a one way ticket Got me thinking bout shit way explicit You know that you want me I know that I want you But I gotta choose now me or you in my fight for sanity Gotta find it deep inside of me But I'm trying But I'm trying Trust me girl that I've been trying If I said I wasn't girl you'd know that I'd be lying F*ck all of these hoes you are the one that I've been wanting But I'm trying But I'm trying But I'm trying But I'm trying Trust me girl that I've been trying If I said I wasn't girl you'd know that I'd be lying F*ck all of these hoes you are the one that I've been wanting But I'm trying But I'm trying But I'm trying I'm trying