Not Dead Yet

Find i've wasted most my life Hide my face to hide from shame I'm wrapped up in a world of pride Everything gets down Until i smoke up now i'm feeling high Only want to waste away cause f*ck this world it's built on lies All you act the fucking same but I can see right passed the lines Walking through the buzzing crowd but no one seems to meet my eyes Always seem to look for something i could never come to find All you make all your assumptions stumbling through this world so blind Care so much about the conclusion then proceed to waste your life Happiness is just an illusion Only way to escape is to die Now my cut has got a contusion Blood is driiping down my spine F*ck this shit i don't want to do it I'm only seeing reasons why Voices telling me to fucking do it Best believe i've already tried Hundreds of times Seems no matter how hard i thrive Can't close my eyes I'm rejected from the fucking sky And by your god Hoe i've tried suicide i can't meet my own demise no Never knew that this day would come Drugging out when we breaking up Fucking now but give it a month She's sneaking out but don't wake him up Don't look now cause i'm on the floor Passing out just to do some more Duck the crown if it's ever worn Don't cross your heart i don't trust a word I know when she call she just wants to f*ck Guess it's been too long I stuff my face right in the cup we get fucked And we just push right on Acting fake up with your new man That's okay cause i don't know him You gon call when your over him F*ck getting sober You'll never get over me I f*ck you like no one can I got over rolled up dollar bills and popping all them pills Still i need you and this Nikki Girl i love that fucking thrill Like i still ain't fucking dead yet but i know one day i will So just look out at the ocean baby and tell me it's real