Nowhere Fast

I don't sing, so I'm sorry if this sucks But it just felt right, you know It just felt right Another year gone by, God do they fly Think I'm gonna get whiplash, cause it just goes so damn fast I wanna go back, oh so bad Back to when I was less concerned with when the time turns forward Cause now I'm focused on the when, dwelling on all of the thens Wish I could be present in the presence of the present tense Seconds are getting precious, the more that they pass So you can bet that from this moment headed forward, I'ma Savor every second, hold on to every breath and make it last Hold on to every moment, God I really hope it lasts My heart feels heavy, oh I don't think I'm ready for now to be past And I don't like this direction, the way that I'm headed It feels like I'm getting nowhere fast 17 years since I've been here, everyone cheers, 18's getting near The presence of fear is ever present here, and the presents I open on Christmas bring me to tear I had a new sister born, love her to bits and more It's funny to think that her first Christmas is my last So I'ma make it last I'ma savor every second, hold on to every breath and make it last Hold on to every moment, God I really hope it lasts My heart feels heavy, oh I don't think I'm ready for now to be past And I don't like this direction, the way that I'm headed It feels like I'm getting nowhere fast If you're still listening at this point in the song That means my singing must not be that bad It's a strange thing, I suppose, being afraid of growing old No one told me to hold them close, the moments who knew they'd be over so fast In this river of life, there was one sliver of light I can still picture her eyes, she was sent from the skies So isn't it right, she would be my demise I find myself longing for simpler times When these waters weren't rocky, I was sure no one could stop me Now I'm trying to stay afloat, as I row my boat alone, I know I'm so emotional I keep holding on to hope, and it's choking like a rope I just can't go on, constantly consumed by the currents And on the rare occurrence that I break to the surface, I know it's not permanent And even though I'm prepared, it hurts again So I'm certain then, that it's just the way it goes The wind as it blows, the ocean as it flows I can't keep going with the flow, so it's time I take control I'ma do it on my own, and no one's gonna know till the show comes to a close I'ma savor every second, hold on to every breath, and make it last Hold on to every moment, God, I really hope it lasts My heart feels heavy, oh I don't think I'm ready for now to be past I don't like this direction, the way that I'm headed It feels like I'm getting, getting nowhere fast. Nowhere fast. Nowhere fast. Nowhere at all Oh, f*ck it