house tour (feat. Ev Linett)

A memory stands outside my door An old acquaintance lost to the night A shockwave sent straight to my core A thought begs its way back to life It hasn't lived here in years, plus maybe some more, since it tore down my walls and extinguished the lights This home is not as before so I'll give you the tour Ask as many questions as you'd like I been debating Should i welcome you in Grab your coat at the door A glass a water to sip It's been minute Since I opened up more I got a couch with some cushions That's at the start of the tour See how I'm living Got some dust in the corner Mind swept outta sight My heart is never in order It's kinda different, I've grown wary of course Of all the company I keep close Especially of yours But I've been missin All the words your tongue would endorse Play me a song about a lover But the chords were laborious I been trippin Please remove your shoes it's important You left your mark on me before and I just swiffered the floors Oh that's my kitchen My fridge is open to forage Help yourself to whatever And grab your beverage of choice Have you eaten? Personally there's a pit in my stomach That I been tryna toughen out No meal's been fillin the void Reminisce a memory scattered like charcuterie boards Feel the warmth of the wine Before we poppin the cork Intimately thinking We should mix up the visit Nothing specific off limits superficial, significant Other business unfinished Our hips with distance diminished In a closer position Than we should really be giving But we been here before And I was wishing for more From an inch to my border To the depth of my core if We go linking our torsos Not immune or immortal If we go down that portal Memory will live in these corridors I already hear these noises, I mistake for your voice Question my choice to mistake your promise for always And now my bedrooms not a peaceful haven I can escape to My mind is always racing while my dreams tryna to chase you Pull the window blinds up as soon as sunrises I can see you walking up my block aint no surprises Play it casual, you can see through all my disguises Careful with my words but you see where my eyes is And some nights just one sight is two steps from crisis Should I wave when you pass by? I can't tell where the line is Had so much left to say but just kept it to myself Now I'm surviving this home alone, keeping it private These walls so thin, neighbors can hear all my time spent Swearing I've moved on, but damn what a lie that it is