Should I know

Where should I go I want to feel like I can rest It is so tiresome To be in so much chaos And again Its like negativity is following me around I should stop But addictions aren't easy to forget Should I know How to ignore these horrible thoughts How to move on without thinking to much I can't do it by myself I just hope That it really is just a phase I don't want this to continue for much longer Don't I look pathetic while being emotional At least that's the impression I have of myself I have no room to breathe It doesn't even help that I'm so sensitive Like come on just grow up or something You're making me tired Im so angry at myself When did I even mess up so badly with my life I am still trying my best At learning from mistakes But its difficult if life doesn't make sense Should I know How to ignore these horrible thoughts How to move on without thinking to much I can't do it by myself I just hope That it really is just a phase I don't want this to continue for much longer How long do I still have to wait I am done I am done