Sometimes

(Your pain comes from the crack in the shell that encloses your understanding Your heart bleeds for joy and your mind cries for help Feeling like no one understands you But in reality, you dont even understand yourself) Some days I feel like I'm better off dead Sometimes the devil is all in my head Some days I say all the things that I mean Then apologize for the shit that I said Sometimes I hurt the people that I love Some days I never knew what love meant Sometimes I F*ck, hold on let me hop back in Some days I feel like I'm better off dead Sometimes the devil is all in my head Some days I say all the things that I mean Then apologize for the shit that I said Sometimes I hurt the people that I love Some days I never knew what love meant Sometimes I wanna tell you what it was And some days I feel like you won't understand Had to let go I know God got a plan Just cause I be smiling don't mean that I'm playing Mama said life ain't as hard as it seem And no disrespect ma but f*ck what you saying I visited hell so many times The devil will tell you so many lies I could be left and neglected Half dead on a stretcher And still prolly tell you I'm fine Take it way back into time Ya seat on recline When I was only bout five Mama was sleep in her room He crept in my bed And started to rub up my thighs I wanted to die She never saw signs I'm losing my mind I'm losing my mind Knew I was strong but she thought I was fine I'm losing my mind I'm losing my mind Some days I feel like I'm better off dead Sometimes the devil is all in my head Some days I say all the things that I mean Then apologize for the shit that I said Sometimes I hurt the people that I love Some days I never knew what love meant Sometimes I wanna tell you what it was And some days I feel like you wont understand I got a dream That I'll make it outta this fucked up environment Life would just as it seem I'll feel no entitlement only enlightenment Finely can say that I'm free I finally can breathe I finally am focused I finally can see Finally ain't playing no role Bitch I am me Bitch I am me I'm smoking weed and it's numbing the pain My family be looking for someone to blame Mama done labeled me hunnits of things But how can she judge me we one in the same I guess they don't notice how much I done changed She so quick to tell me I'm stuck in my ways I know that this anger will number my days Im full of resentment its fueling my rage Some days I feel like I'm better off dead Sometimes the devil is all in my head Some days I say all the things that I mean Then apologize for the shit that I said Sometimes I hurt the people that I love Some days I never knew what love meant Sometimes I wanna tell you what it was And some days I feel like you wont understand Yeah