Rid My Pride

Baby I know I ain’t right See I’m just gatherin' the clues All I know is how to try But girl sometimes I’m kinda boof Pray to God I rid my pride And do my job and that’s the truth I know one day ima die Before I do I wanna prove That I’m better than I been I’m just busy in my head But girl that’s never no excuse Gotta choose to climb the fence I’m just tryna make amends Girl that’s all that’s left to do It’s been a while now I been in a drought girl Look at my soul... It’s in a compound tryna get it out I done put it on hold... No control When I get in my flesh I feel broke even though I’m blessed I need mo’, feel it in my chest So what’s next? Should I go visit a specialist tell em to gimme some meds? For my, head Maybe a solid neurologist Someone wit knowledge I lack? I should, ask Or Maybe I’m dark hearted Maybe I’m, one of them lost causes Maybe I’m, really a, con-artist I’m flawed, on god I’m far from righteous, that’s true Baby I know I ain’t right See I’m just gatherin' the clues All I know is how to try But girl sometimes I’m kinda boof Pray to God I rid my pride And do my job and that’s the truth I know one day ima die Before I do I wanna prove That I’m better than I been I’m just busy in my head But girl that’s never no excuse Gotta choose to climb the fence I’m just tryna make amends Girl that’s all that’s left to do All I know’s I can’t afford to not be workin' on myself If I do I know I’ll slowly tip us over til we spill I don’t wanna end this story witchu broken from my mess I won’t wreck What we built Let’s steer this ship Now take a left now Shawty when we met Do you remember How you felt, wow? Yeah I know you felt The way I felt, you blew my chest out I was workin' hard to earn yo praise But I guess I got complacent When I wifed you out the game And I’m ashamed Cuz I get in my ways And I take my breaks Like I’m not on shift It’s not okay When I crawl in caves And I hide my face from the job I picked I’m a real long dick Girl excuse my French I can’t describe it out that frame I choose sin Even though I live My life for God, am I insane? I’m not gon' blame nobody Won’t shame nobody But me, myself, and I You see my brain so clouded By laze and folly I hate myself sometimes I look in my eyes And see that I’m not The nigga I needa be I’m a façade I look at the clock And see that it’s not Promisin’ time It’s promised to stop Ima die Baby I know I ain’t right See I’m just gatherin' the clues All I know is how to try But girl sometimes I’m kinda boof Pray to God I rid my pride And do my job and that’s the truth I know one day ima die Before I do I wanna prove That I’m better than I been I’m just busy in my head But girl that’s never no excuse Gotta choose to climb the fence I’m just tryna make amends Girl that’s all that’s left to do