sitting with my thoughts pt. 1

Sometimes I be wondering where my home is Where do I belong Where did I come from Where do I be goin Why the world so cold Why's it always frozen Why do I freeze in place Whenever it starts snowing The winds of change are blowing Away the seeds that I been sowing And the soil that I'm planted in Is dust my roots can' hold on Life is but a river I suppose I should be rowing But this ice on top the water Got a hold it's frozen over I got these problems from my past that I can't explain In normal words so I put them in these songs I sang But that's light compared to the darkness today All these youngins growing up in world that hides their pain But all that's hidden in the dark to the light it finds a way Inside the traumas and the patterns we hold inside our brains These behaviors seen as problems so they shackle us in chains These fabrics that they wrap us in seeming hella fake But the new generation gives me hope that they relate To the true nature of this world and our current state So I do my best to nurture what could change the future But sometimes I question to myself where is my escape And I wonder my home is Where do i belong Why have I come so far To have no clue where I'm going And when these winds are blowing I feel like snow on top the bluff When i go down the mountain Did I change enough Did I change enough? I could start out with this flow Aye Watch me change it up