straight a's

I've always had straight A's Painted my face for every party I won the games I played I won the games I played Grew up, found love on a basement floor I gave him me, but he begged, so I gave him some more Ain't lost my mind before I fought that war Now I don't, I don't recognize the old me She went, she went missing in 2020 But shit, didn't everybody My heart so, heart so brutalized love feels cheap Never, never been one anybody keeps 22 and already grieving what used to be Fully dressed, dead sober in the shower I would call my ex if I Weren't on these meds Thank god I told my mother There's a girl back from the dead And l think I could love her Still hard to wake some days Count the pills on the shelf Like counting nights I broke down My head's a self made hell I know that place too well I don't, I don't recognize the old me She went, she went missing in 2020 But so did everybody, everybody, everybody No, you're not special baby In pain, we're just same So stop complaining Screaming like a baby You're fucking crazy Shattering daily All systems failing, failing Fully dressed, dead sober in the shower I would call my ex if I Weren't on these meds Thank god i told my mother There's a girl back from the dead And l think I could love her I've always had straight A's