fever dream

Before I knew it I was a little girl Always trying to figure out their lies Always trying to stay inside And I'm wondering, what's wrong with me? Why do all these people keep on leaving? I know he knows there's something wrong with me I thought that looks could be deceiving Before I knew it I was in the world Learning how to love, when it's something you ain't seen Makes it, kinda hard And makes it feel like it's a fever dream Loving you is like a fever dream I never knew the things that hurt me then would hurt me now And I can't help but wonder what it is you'd say To try and make me come around And every time I feel like I moved on Hear your name and I feel like I'm nine again And they always say that I'm so strong But inside I'm just trying to die again And I beg you if your gonna do it, kill me now And I wonder what it is I'd do if I didn't have you around Learning how to love, when it's something you ain't seen Makes it, kinda hard And makes it feel like it's a fever dream Maybe you could try, loving me With your eyes closed