Soak in the Chaos

I know it's not healthy But how do I love this thing that just hurts me They say to accept it But how do I live like this it's exhausting I used to think that this all had a purpose But maybe this world is just a little fucked up I'll be stoic Let myself feel it Soak in the chaos now My aching body's a sign I'm living Maybe surrender's how I fight I know it's destructive But how do I nurture this body that just hates me They say change your perspective But how do I forgive this dust on my cello I used to think that this all had a purpose But maybe this world is just a little fucked up I'll be stoic Let myself feel it Soak in the chaos now My aching body's a sign I'm living Maybe surrender's how fight I'll be stoic let myself feel it Soak in the chaos now My aching body's a sign I'm living Maybe surrender's how I fight Though I'm tempted by the pain in my control And though it beckons me to never let this go I'll be stoic Let myself feel it Soak in the chaos now My aching body's a sign I'm living Maybe surrender is how I fight