Missing Myself

I'm climbing and trying to get up to where I can look at the world To see if there's anything missing cuz I just feel distant I feel like I'm stuck in a whirl I know that I got what I want I'm living it up in a place that I got with my girl But really I'm feeling this pain up inside of my brain and I'm thinking my life's gonna curl Sit back, I'm breathing it out Like my mama taught me breathe out of your mouth And in through your nose, I'm starting to count, My blessing and hoping that something amounts To happiness cuz I've been stuck in this drought, Ain't growing regardless of how much I've watered myself with my tears And I lost what I found My thoughts aren't escaping I can't use my mouth Trying to get out and chase what I want but it isn't too easy I know I'm too busy for that cuz I'm worried bout when all my bros gonna leave me My stomach still turns when I think about how all my friends and my family perceives me Am I just a f*ck up that missed my potential because I could never complete me Fall back til I can't see me Am I what I've been missing Searched the earth but somethings still missing cuz I could not complete me Call back to when she freed me Is she what I was missing Got my girl but somethings still missing cuz I don't wanna be me Fall back til I can't see me Am I what I've been missing Searched the earth but somethings still missing cuz I could not complete me Call back to when she freed me Is she what I was missing Got my girl but somethings still missing cuz I don't wanna be me Sit back, and listen to rap I'm dreaming bout how I could go and do that But something is holding me back and I know it's not money Cuz I'm really needing those stacks Something is holding me back and it might be the fame cuz I really don't wanna be that Boy like a lacroix, sparkling up on the stage with millions of people Just screaming my name and their singing my songs Looking at me like I'm some type of god Don't look up to me cuz you shouldn't be fond Of what I've been doing cuz I do it wrong And it seriously makes me uncomfortable when I got eyes that are meeting my eyes I look at the skies and I'm never surprised, my stars aren't aligned cuz I'll never get by So why have I even been sitting here dreaming I might as well snap right up out of it I know that I'll never have what it'll take so I might as well stop being proud of it I know that I'll pray to get out of this cage but I'll end up in the dirt I know that I'm trying to write out my pain, but I'll still end up with hurt Fall back til I can't see me Am I what I've been missing Searched the earth but somethings still missing cuz I could not complete me Call back to when she freed me Is she what I was missing Got my girl but somethings still missing cuz I don't wanna be me Fall back til I can't see me Am I what I've been missing Searched the earth but somethings still missing cuz I could not complete me Call back to when she freed me Is she what I was missing Got my girl but somethings still missing cuz I don't wanna be me