Only To Blame (Original)

Going to my nine to five What a drive No one seems to realize We need the drive Motivation besides Mouths to feed Such a tragedy Cars pass by me Depression hits But I feel the change It all seems to fit Right into place Hunger sets in But it don't feel the same Nothing accepted And I'm only to blame I'm only to blame Dark clouds float in It's starting to rain I'm supposed to be lifted But I still feel ashamed Fighting for what holds against me Choking my heart gently Crackin it open its empty Fill it again don't tempt me Believe what you think is true Before it comes to haunt you Words only trust a Few That means your own too Deciding in front of a mirror Slowly killing my liver Hoping I don't lose a brother Don't wanna tell their mother I'm only to blame Religion never helped me It just told me what hate was Will something out there protect me When everyone else is gone? These are viable questions Why are none of them answered I just wanna bring the message That seed was never planted I think about this daily Instead of thinking for myself Why is there so much hate lately? What happened to being righteous I should probably stop thinking Doesn't seem to change The way I feel sinking To where I forget my name I'm only to blame