too many transitions

I'm gonna be gone soon And I've searched for years for someone And now that they're finally here I now have to leave There's so much to do and so little time All I wanna do is grieve I'm feeling a little bit better but I called the number twice I helped them when they needed it but I didn't take my own advice I need to be my first priority, I'm trying so fucking hard you have no idea The cure became the disease, I just need time to freeze I never stopped and looked around The winds of change are in surround sound Time's standing still but it's moving so damn fast I'm leaving behind my whole life and I'm taking off the casts My free trail is up yet it feels fake as ever I go through every day yet recognize it's real seldom to never There are people that are sitting 'round And doing nothing waiting to become themselves For me, there's too many transitions That are being dealt with all at once Into the chaos, I will delve What the f*ck is college? Stop going till we figure it out There's too much to figure out I need to figure out how, to figure out how to live in my own damn skin This world is pessimistic I promise there's hope but you need to learn how to let it in They always told us slow and steady wins the race But you know in the end, we never win I'll always wonder if I'll live to see my dream Does anyone get to where they really want? Or do we just write away all our feelings And all of our dreams in essays in a different font? Time's standing still but it's moving so damn fast I'm leaving behind my whole life and I'm taking off the casts My free trail is up yet it feels fake as ever I go through every day yet recognize it's real seldom to never You're busy getting high but you've never felt lower I've felt that low without it but now you all seem slower Is everything okay? Can you wake up and go get me some simplicity for my birthday? They don't even ask if you're okay They don't acknowledge that you're there They don't ask where you are I don't even think they really care Adolescent reliance and the lack of compliance All the times of defiance are just part of human science Time's standing still but it's moving so damn fast I'm leaving behind my whole life and I'm taking off the casts My free trail is up yet it feels fake as ever I go through every day yet recognize it's real seldom to never Time's standing still but it's moving so damn fast I'm leaving behind my whole life and I'm taking off the casts My free trail is up yet it feels fake as ever I go through every day yet recognize it's real seldom to never